About Me

A young lady, making her way through life, guided by God's incredible love that just won't let go. I walk, I falter, I float I fall, I fail and yet I rise again For there is something that compels me LOVE It’s so amazing, so divine. I am His His treasure His beloved His jewel His darling!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Food for thought

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Culled from A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson

I could go on and on about this quote, every word of it resonates with me.
I probably should just make the whole quote bold :) for emphasis


Have a beautiful November

Friday, October 7, 2011

Warning!! Extremely Random

Read at your own risk
LOL

Hmm, I feel like I went to bed in July and woke up in October.
It's been a really busy year and different things happening not taking cognizance of my thought or reaction to it.
But live I must have fun while at it I will.

BUT
the pressure is mounting
another year end approaches
what would it be this time
would I look back and smile at the achievements
or would I look back and see loads I could have accomplished
but today is all I have, and live it I certainly would.

OK
So it's Friday- I haven't looked forward to the end of a day more.

So much is happening but I hardly have the words to capture it all.
I know I'm rambling a bit lot, but me thinks that's part of what I intended to do with this spot originally so I'm covered (winks).

Steve Jobs is dead but his legacies live on (even in my computer font- grins), might have lived a short life "just" 56 years but the impact would be felt for much longer.
What would yours be?

Ok I better get out now before this rambling goes even further.

Did you actually read all that?

Sorry oops thanks
I'm outta here.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Stand Tall!

Stand tall, even when the path ahead is unclear
Stand tall, even when others around bow in fear
Stand tall, even when the tall ones bend to strange rules
Even when you find yourself standing alone- STAND TALL for what is right.

Y'all have a greal weekend standing tall!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Life & Seasons

At different seasons of life we all face different challenges and at the point in time each challenge looks like it would last forever, like nothing is going to be able to surmount it. Eventually, that phase comes to an end and somehow we move to the next, totally forgetting about the daunting task we just overcame.

If only we are perceptive, this would serve as a reminder and a soothing comfort that whatever BIG problem at hand too will be a distant memory soon.
My quick trip down some BIG phases:

As a child in elementary school, the early morning class tests were my greatest challenge, I worried about getting to class late and having to risk the headmaster's strokes of cane, then the risk of not completing the "morning tonic" as he loved to call the early morning quiz and as a result getting less than the required cut off mark which would ultimately lead to some more strokes of the cane.

Then quickly enough those days were over and I was in junior high, those days the greatest challenge initially was out smarting the senior students who had a thing for acting like the demi gods in school, and I sure had a fun time doing that, escaping kidnappers was the most interesting highlight of those days. Then soon enough the untold "agonies" of the boarding house followed and in the midst of that "nightmare' I had to ensure I got good grades in the national junior high exam and like everything else, that too was gone just as quickly as it came.

Next it was senior high heralding an "embarrassing" growth phase that seemed bent on making a fool of me. There were the boys who had been my childhood friends but now suddenly started acting really strange - like I was some alien of some sort and not the same girl with whom they had played catch and who could climb the tree fastest, others sounded rather scary with the new found cracked voices and now they became so self conscious where they used to be carefree. About that time came the flow that had always been the myth of junior high ARGH, that wasn't so much fun. Just as quickly came preparation for the final exams- mehn that looked just about like the end of the world but just when I thought it would never end, it was all gone and the College journey.

There was the projects, term papers, class attendance registers and the numerous assignments that characterized the 4 year blur and then it was all over. So I made it through that too and with a good result, next it was the much anticipated /dreaded NYSC in Nigeria - a worse jungle I am yet to see. The amenities (or lack of it) the dreadful slop called food, the 3 week camp and my 2 food diet for the entire duration. The endless match past, the new friends, the puzzled looks, the age jokes(ask me about that sometime) and the endurance walk (that was fun by the way) and finally camp days were over and the real trip was about to start in the inter lands of Enugu (nothing but the NYSC coulda taken me to the state).

The days spent working in an environment totally far from conventional office ("colleagues" speaking at the top of their voices in a language that makes me wonder if to try to appease both sides to stop the quarrel till I hear the sudden laughter that tells me it's a good thing I hadn't spoken out because they were just having a good time- but how am I to know when I've got no clue what they are saying and their facial expressions and the volume of their voices does nothing to comfort). Anyway that phase too ended just as quickly as it started and it was time to return to the comfort of the familiar.

Next came the job search, the endless applications with no acknowledgments, then the discouragements before the big answer came when I least expected it and there I was 1st of March on my way to my first job and just as I was settling into the role another job offer came but it sounded too good to pass up so there was I on a second job when I wasn't counting on it and a new journey started.

Looking back today, at the whole journey of life, I am assured that even this phase will be gone soon enough so I am determined to make the most of it and not get carried away worrying about the challenges that currently look insurmountable.

Whatever place or phase you are at make the most of it and remember soon all you'll have of it is memories. I know I'll hate to look back at my life and ask what was I thinking getting all worked up and considering what I know now (whenever that is), I'm going to live fully alive and enjoy every phase I'm at because I know it will soon be gone.

So will it really matter in 5 years? What would you see when you look back on today?

Monday, August 15, 2011

Just for today

This is in no way an original write up of mine.
It's just something I got somewhere some years back and it's crawled out from my achive every once in a while over the years at points I really need to be reminded. It crawled out again this morning (sigh) and oh how much I need it. I also thought to share it as it might just be what the doctor prescribed for someone other than myself today.
Enjoy!

Just for today,
I will live through this day only,
and not set far-reaching goals
nor to try to overcome
all my problems at once.
I know I can do something for 24 hours
that would overwhelm me
if I thought I had to keep it up
for a lifetime.

Just for today,
I will be happy.
Abraham Lincoln said,
"Most folks are about as happy
as they make up their minds to be."
He was right.
I will not dwell on thoughts
that depress me.
I will chase them out of my mind
and replace them
with happy thoughts.

Just for today,
I will adjust myself to what is.
I will face reality.
I will correct those things
that I can correct
and accept those I cannot.

Just for today,
I will improve my mind.
I will not be a mental loafer.
I will force myself to read something
that requires effort,
thought, and concentration.

Just for today,
I will do something positive
to improve my health.
If I'm a smoker,
I'll make an honest effort to quit.
If I'm overweight,
I'll eat nothing I know to be fattening.
And I will force myself to exercise ...
even if it's only walking around the block
or using the stairs instead of the elevator.

Just for today,
I will make a conscious effort
to be agreeable.
I will look as good as I can,
dress becomingly,
speak softly, act courteously,
and not interrupt
when someone else is talking.

Just for today,
I'll try not to improve anybody
except myself.
We know so much more about nutrition
and how much exercise and sensible living
can extend life and make it more enjoyable ...
so just for today,
I'll take good care of my body
so I can celebrate
many more happy new years.

Just for today,
I will have a program.
I may not follow it exactly,
but I will have it,
thereby saving myself from two pests ...
hurry and indecision.

Just for today,
I will gather the courage
to do what is right
and take the responsibility
for my own actions.

“Then he said unto them, Go your way, eat the fat, and drink the sweet, and send portions unto them for whom nothing is prepared: for this day is holy unto our Lord: neither be ye sorry; for the joy of the LORD is your strength.” - Nehemiah 8:10

Author: Unknown


Just for today I will rest in God and not try to fix anything. Just for today.

Have a great day

Sunday, July 31, 2011

July's all gone!

Hmm, it's been a really wonderful year for me. July being my nirth month always constitutes a reflection time for me (not like I don't do that in other months too but July is extra-special).

My birthday was so much fun, it was a work free day for me and well worth it. Spent a good deal of time with FL, we had a really beautiful time. My phone kept beeping from dawn to dusk. My family had a surprise planned for me- I was just so humbled by it all.

Looking back through the years, I've come to recognise my FL's hand in my life. He has saved me from so many things, from foolish decisions, to escaping freak accidents that coulda been fatal. And where I made mistakes or found myself in situations beyond my control, He's helped me not to be shaped my those mistakes/ situations, rather I've been able to learn from it and grow.

This year has been exceptionally good! Living intentionally is so much fun :) I sometimes forget and fall into my old self but He reminds me and I pick up again.

I've done some things that in the past I woulda been too worried about failing to even try but like a big brother told me " whatever is worth doing is worth failing at" the success is in making the move not in the final outcome. In that spirit, I planned a surpise bridalshower for a friend and though not all I expected turned up, but for those around, we had so much fun! The surprise on her face made it all worth it! A big thank you to a big sister that helped make it happen.

That brings me to another lesson I've learnt this year, when in doubt ask questions, the worst answer you can get is a negative one but you'll never know if you don't ask.

I still hide from somethings but I'm learning to challenge myesle more.

I'm not good enough, I'll never be but He loves me just the same (that's a post for another day)

Have a lovely new month! August is here!!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I am so excited

If you ask me why I am excited, I honestly don't know but I just know I am over the top.
Woke up this morning just so happy. I sang all the way to the office, I think it affected my dressing too this morning, I look really good- extra dolled up today ;)even if I am the one saying so. I am just glad to be alive, loving God and life!

Maybe the fact that my birthday is just around the corner (literarily- the coner being a day)has to do with it. Not like I have anything planned for the day just yet. Ideas anybody???

Anyway, hope you are having a great day too?

Ok gotta run now

I hope to be back in a bit
Hmm I want a new BB for my birthday is that too much to ask? Asking for a 'BB torch-9800 ' isn't "oliver twist" now is it?
I mean my birthday is just once a year, a Marc Jacob (any of the Daisy(s)will do) wont me a bad one in the mix too (just so partial to that fragrance I wonder why)

Ok, I know I am just rambling, but you can't grudge a girl for just being happy.


All my ducks don’t not line in a row
my list of to do's might not be all checked
my dreams need not all be fulfilled
but I am content in knowing I am loved by Love himself
I am always in safe hands

Do you still wonder why I am smiling all day long?
When I go to sleep, it’s in his everlasting arms as sleep laying on his chest
when I wake, it's to his kiss
when I go out, he is constantly with me, meeting my needs even before I think to ask
I might not have all you think I need
BUT
I am contented
®DarLyn 20110719

Hmm that was impromptu
I should be excited everyday (and have a BB -winks) then I'll update daily

Lots of love
Darlyn